forever, perfectly perfect together

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 03:49:37 GMT

loves it!

a whole lotta nothing

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 23:00:59 GMT

i dont really have anything to write about but i was feeling guilty about not updating for a while.
thursay was thanksgiving, it was good, but then again can you really go wrong w/ pie? answer; you cant!
friday i had to work and saturday i had to wake up at the ass crack of dawn for a little swimming. the rest of the day i was pretty burnt out. i watched some movies with steph. and simple life!
sunday i worked and was wicked tired so i played cards with matt. i killed him, but he wont pay up.

so yeah this entry sucked, but you cant say i didnt warn you.
<3for all

This all was only wishful thinkin

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 02:55:15 GMT

warning; this is a brandnew-free entry, upon the request of the lovely kari sorbara!

speaking of kari i got to see her today :) i was so excited!!! we went to URI. it was hot! actually it was freezing but you know.. anyway i really like the campus. but it is kinda rural.. i kinda wanna go to school in a city, but whatever i have a year to think about that. our tour guide was crazy; brit the cheerleader on crack! i couldn't listen to her for more then 5 mins at a time without wanting to punch her. but whatever. i am excited to visit more schools with kari! i missed her sooooo much!

<3

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 20:12:43 GMT

And it comes down to you.
Never and ever.
Wrecked his day with looks and flirts
and midnight in your shortest skirts.
Past the point of trying, I'm a dying breed.
Thank her for reminding me of all the things I've done completely wrong.
Stop these looks and letters.
This isn't for the better.
You put me down
It's for the worse you're not my girl
Stop the circulation to my legs and break my bones.
Dateless and late.
I'm better by myself at home.
Past the point of trying and I'm dying here
Secondary.
She laughs at every word I know came out completely wrong.
This is my last semester.
Brothers always come first.
At least until next winter.
But I'm sure that I'll be over this by then.
Better scenes... I wish she'd seen me.
Better off if I just let it be.
Better pretend it don't matter.
I'd be better off if I could have her.
Better days since the day I met her.
I better hope she got my letters.
Better off in two year stretches.

I really HATE YOU!

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 01:03:35 GMT

Back in school they never taught us what we needed to know,
like how to deal with despair, or someone breaking your heart.
For twelve years I've held it all together but a night like this is begging to pull me apart.
I played it quiet left you deep in conversation.
I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen.
I remember I kept thinking that I know you never would,
but now I know I want to kill you like only a best friend could.

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to.

As if this happening wasn't enough I got to go
and write a song just to remind myself how bad it sucked.
Ignore the sun, the cover's over my head.
I wrote a message on my pillow that says, "Jesse, stay asleep in bed."
So don't apologize. I hope you choke and die.
Search your cell for something with which to hang yourself.
They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven
but they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to hell.

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to
And everyone's caught on to everything you do (And I can't let you, let me down again.)
Everyone's caught on to (And I can't let you, let me down again)

So, is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with.
Cause I've seen more spine on jellyfish.
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids.
Have another drink and drive yourself home.
I hope there's ice on all the roads.
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,
and again when your head goes through the windshield.

And is that what you call tact?
You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back.
So let's end this call, and end this conversation.
and is that what you call a getaway?
well tell me what you got away with.
cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
when you say best friends mean friends forever

So, is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with.
Cause I've seen more spine on jellyfish.
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids.
Have another drink and drive yourself home.
I hope there's ice on all the roads.
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,
and again when your head goes through the windshield.

Everyone's caught on to everything you do (And I can't let you, let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to (And I can't let you, let me down again)
And everyone's caught on to everything you do (And I can't let you, let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to (And I can't let you, let me down again)

my brandnew fix ;)

ahhh

Sun, 31 Oct 2004 03:34:27 GMT

tried to go to salem with kim abby kristen meg and jen. but we got lost so i never made it there. and i was freaking out. it was scary! so paronoid.
tonight sucked even more than driving around for 2 hours. i'm pissed off majorly.

yeahhh

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 22:53:31 GMT

today i hung out with bri kim and linds. wicked fun. then we had to drop kim off at work and got our eyebrows waxed.
i am in excited becuase my mom in ny so i can do whatever i want now. so good.
ahh so burnt out. i wanna sleep.

yeahhh

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 22:53:21 GMT

you got mail

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 23:55:18 GMT

friday went to the game with mimi hannah and lizzy. it was kinda boring so we left 3rd quater and got free food from some weird guy at wendy's. whatever it was free

saturday went to boston with kate and steph. so fun! took the red line to harvard to see the charles. (good thing we went yesterday because i wasnt able to get down there this morning :( i wanted to see my central guys and steph!) we had to run to the train with sandwiches and and my bag broke and lost circulation in my arm. a homeless man told us we got mail. i went deaf on the train and shouted my plan to buy porn and cigars when i turn 18. good day :)

dont talk to strangers, but strangers have the best candy!

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 22:06:05 GMT

good weekend.

saturday i went to boston with hannah and steph :) i drove us down to mass and we took the train in. we used to t to go from newbury street to city hall plaza, and we didnt even got lost. what an accomplishment! i got a great cashmere sweater from anthropology and a buddha shirt from uo. i love the buddah! however the best find of the day was the $1 rings we all got outside of north station. i cant wait to shop more during the charles weekend when i actually have money. maybe i will buy another ring.

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 04:00:07 GMT

i havent updated in a while so lets seeee..

this weekend i hung out with steph and hung out with jess at the regatta.
on wednesday i hung out w/ bri kim and higgs, they are great ladies <3

tonight i went to the game in salem with jess danny johnny and ben. it was a good time in yukon. we did get lost though... the game sucked. we won. YEAH CENTRAL! haha. the ride was more fun than the actual game.

then i met up with steph and others such a bd, spent the rest of the night driving around with him b/c we both have a horrible sense of direction.

well my young sole needs so sleep because we are going to boston sooo early!

shout out to kari; i am in love with your poetry! you are amazing girl <3

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 01:49:10 GMT

HA! i have no shame. since no one reads this besides steph i will share my badassness. possibly something like peeing on someones car!!!!! mwahahaha!

i've been feeling rather sad lately. in desperate need of some lovin'...

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 03:43:01 GMT

ewww i am so angry. happy to mad in 6.7 second!

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 04:18:33 GMT

i havent felt this numb for a while. i dont know if it is good. but it cant be bad. no feeling=no getting hurt.

tonight was weird. steph, hannah, lizzie, mimi, tess, matt, bd, oc and sk came to shaws to visit me(?). then everyone went to play games except hannah and steph. they were at wendys and ran into ben jess and bro. we talked for a little. then left and did nothing but play the neutral game. uneventful.

boys

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 23:40:53 GMT

so today i had to do a lot of errands after crew and like everywhere i went men were starting conversations with me. i was like hmm ok i mean i usually talk with sales people cause like i dunno its fun for me, but like everywhere men were like desperate to talk to me. and i looked disgusting too. so i get home and i walk by my bathroom mirror and i am like whattt- so i do a double take and my boobs looked totally huge in my shirt. so i have figured out the key to men, no matter how gross you look they will like you if you have a giant rack. which is bad news for small chested chicas like myself. haha guys are so easy. i am getting a boob job.

when we kiss they are perfectly aligned

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 21:48:30 GMT

today is my half birthday!!
i am 16 and a half wooo!

i wish i had someone to share it with, i am in desperate need of some lovin'

;)

death by cough

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 23:35:53 GMT

i've seen more spine in jellyfish
i've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids

today was a sucky hump day. i am angry. i want to move. i think i might. this places brings me down. and makes me upset.

my mom is finally letting me see a doctor tomorrow. why does she always think i am lying about being sick. 1st the knee now my cough.

damn this is boring. its ok no one besides steph reads this crap anyway.

for me

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 23:16:50 GMT

i've seen more spine in jellyfish,
i've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids.

i think i am the only one that reads this, so this entry is just for me.

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 00:37:18 GMT

i went to crew today!

10 and a half gold stars for myself.
i feel accomplished :)

give me back my life, its mine!

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 02:15:20 GMT

my life officially doesnt belong to me anymore
it belongs to those evil masterminds at shaws.
no lie. I LIVE THERE
i am thinking about setting up a bed for myself out back. i think that will be nice.

or not

memo to shaw's: GIVE ME MY LIFE BACK!!

i'm baaaaaaack

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 16:15:49 GMT

god it hard getting in the swing of "journaling" again. its also hard not wanting to pour your soul into this thing and let complete strangers read how tragic you are, but i may do that anyway.
this summer really made me think. i'm not going drill my views that we are all trying to fit into this impossible, prefect cookie-cutter mold, although that is a pretty dead on epiphany. no i will focus on me, however conceited that sounds. i grew into myself this summer, how lame that sounds i dont really care. i think it was all the traveling. people say it's good to be worldly, i thought that was just so you could brag to your other stuck up friends about your adventures abroad. but its really not. you learn how other people act. you arent surrounded by the same people. you learn independence. i am truly thankful that i wasnt stuck here all summer. not because i hate everyone, that would be too cynical, but because i was able to come into my own. this year i am looking forward to finally being myself for once. and if that leaves me friendless- fuck it, i'm only stuck here for 2 more years.

soooooo tired

Wed, 16 Jun 2004 20:16:33 GMT

yay finals! studying is bad, however i like-y the short days :)

i am going to italy so soon!

:)

Sat, 12 Jun 2004 04:29:21 GMT

today was a good day

i went to matt's after school. ben stole my car so i took his money. i had to be ball girl, but i all i did was lay on grass and tan. then i left and went to pick up stephy. she made me change out of my booty skirt. then we picked up chris to go to the show in nashua. we got lost A LOT. the show was fun at the begining, but then it sucked mucho. the bands were bad, so that wasnt fun. then me steph and sean went to bertucci's for din. it was good. sean drove my car home, because i cant drive.

pills

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 02:12:10 GMT

isnt it weird how we take pills for everything? there are so many pills. how did they even think of how to make them all? there are pills for headaches, allergies, depression. whats next, pills for broken hearts </3? ok im going to take some meds for my headache now.

i love new stuff

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 20:33:39 GMT

i got some new clothes today! i love new things, even if they are old?

"I like my money right where I can see it... hanging in my closet."- sex and the city

<3